Where Bachelor in Paradise’s Susie Evans and Ex Justin Glaze Stand Now

Susie Evans is pulling back the curtain on her time as a contestant on Bachelor in Paradise and where she stands now with ex Justin Glaze.

Susie, 31, reflected on Justin’s shocking rose ceremony offer — which she declined — during the Thursday, July 17, episode of the “Viall Files” podcast. (Justin, also 31, ultimately went home but gave his rose to Jill Chin to save her from being eliminated.)

“I just felt so bad. I was like, ‘I’m so sorry,’” Susie said, explaining that she didn’t know Justin would leave the show if she didn’t accept the rose. “That is why I was so sick [to my stomach].”

Now, Susie and Justin are on “really good terms” — and she has spoken with Lexi Young, whom Justin pursued a connection with in Costa Rica.

“I have talked with Justin. I have talked with Lexi. Adore them both. I think they are both really great people. Good vibes all around,” she said.

Before Susie departed the show, she went on a date with Jeremy Simon, but he ultimately gave his rose to Bailey Brown. After the rose ceremony, Jeremy, 31, second-guessed his decision when Bailey, 28, joined newcomer Andrew Spencer for a date. Jeremy proceeded to call Susie and ask her to return, but she claimed she was at the airport and wouldn’t come back.

Susie noted that she was asleep and in transit when she received the phone call, saying the moment was “great television.”

“I think people really want to stay on the show. I did. I really wanted to be there,” Susie said. “I think a part of it that’s disappointing for me was I literally had so much fun. It does look like I’m crying. And I’ve seen a lot of things that are like, ‘You’re just crying over Justin the whole time you were there.’ No, I’m crying because when I arrived, I was like, ‘Oh, I’m going home. You sent me in with an umbrella. Nobody was really excited to see me.’”

Susie realized “as soon” as she was sent into the show that it was not going to be “what [she] thought it was” and was “really disappointed.”

“When I started crying that night — one, I’m starting the process to get my eggs frozen. I had just gotten some information back, like, before getting there. I had shared that — that didn’t make the cut. Not that I would want it to,” she said. “I had shared that with Justin. He knows I’m going through that process. But then he asked me how I was doing and I just started crying because I was like, ‘I’m going home. There’s nobody here for me.’”

Susie quipped that the “pickings were slim” with the men on the beaches of Costa Rica, claiming she was told ahead of time there was someone she should pursue — which she thinks might have been Dale Moss. (At the most recent rose ceremony which aired earlier this week, Dale, 36, gave his rose to Kat Izzo.)

“I think he’s the person that they were telling me about before going. They were like, ‘There’s somebody coming that we think you are going to really hit it off with,’” she said. “I’m like, ‘Do tell. Do tell.’ I’m like, ‘Put me in, please.’ They’re like, ‘He’s older. He’s got a real job.’ … I thought it was multiple people. But I got there and I was like, ‘Oh, this is who they’re talking about, but he’s occupied.’”

Bachelor in Paradise airs on ABC Mondays at 8 p.m. ET.