Emilie Kiser Admits She ‘Barely’ Made It Through Months After Trigg’s Death

Influencer Emilie Kiser is reflecting on the months following son Trigg’s death.

“I truly lately have just been reflecting on the last five months,” Kiser said in a Saturday, October 18, TikTok, while filming herself getting ready. “Since losing Trigg, I feel like I constantly am in this state — it almost feels like I’m floating. I just don’t know how, honestly, I’ve gotten through the last five months. I was five weeks postpartum with Teddy when my son Trigg passed away. Even thinking about that and re-getting myself into that headspace — [I’m] confused how I’ve made it through, barely, the last five months.”

Emilie shared that when she looks at her and husband Brady Kiser’s son Teddy, she’s hit with “such a purpose.”

“I don’t even know. Teddy was so meant to be. Especially going through the loss of our first son, how incredibly, incredibly hard it’s been,” she said. “And hard isn’t even the correct word to describe losing a child. You literally cannot explain the feelings of it. But having him here and when I look at him and the joy that he brings me and the joy that he brings us and my family and everything, I’m just hit with this sense of feeling like he is so meant to be here.”

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She continued, “I just know his brother is watching over him. I see so much of Trigg in Teddy. Just grateful to be a mom, you know. I don’t know if that is really a topic for Get Ready With Me right now, but I just felt like I wanted to say that.”

In May, the Chandler, Arizona, Police Department confirmed to Us Weekly that Trigg died after he was pulled unconscious from the family’s pool. Two months later, authorities submitted a criminal charge recommendation for Brady. The Maricopa County Attorney’s Office, however, later shared that there was “no likelihood of conviction” against Brady, who was at home when Trigg died.

Emilie broke her silence on Trigg’s death in August, sharing that she takes “full accountability” and knows she “should have done more to protect him.”

“One of the hardest lessons I carry is that a permanent pool fence could have saved his life, and it’s something I will never overlook again,” she wrote, in part. “I hope amidst this pain, Trigg’s story will help prevent other children and families from suffering the same loss.”

In the months that have followed, Emilie has returned to social media and opened up about going to therapy. In a September TikTok, Emilie shared that she tends to feel “nervous” before her sessions but ultimately thinks it is “worth it.”

“Today we just talked about, basically, everything that has happened. It’s obviously been hard. There’s no doubt about that. It’s been really hard to deal with. And then on top of that, dealing with the grief and the sadness and the loss and the literal hole that we feel in our lives,” she said at the time. “That’s about it. I definitely feel better.”

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